I can only be vague to you...

I just want to shout.  Scream loud and holler!  So many emotions and things to do right now.  So many questions to ask, but I can't.  I have decided that I am a very analytical person.  Too analytical!!!  I wish I could just relax and enjoy life.  I also wish I could be bold without regrets.  If this were me, I would just walk up to people and voice my opinion or whatever.  Why not?  Why can't I do this?  Because I WILL make a fool of myself.  I will embarrass myself and then have to crawl up under a rock.  There would also be too many witnesses.  There are always be watching, which means I have to be extra careful.  Too many people judging me.  Too many people thinking I should do certain things in certain ways.  You may be thinking, "What are you talking about, Liz?"  Well, one of the allusive things would be the judgmental people thinking I should not spank my daughter.  I would like to say to them, "I am not spanking your child.  Better yet, I am not spanking you!"  I mean, seriously, what does it really matter to you how I raise my child. It does not effect how you live.  In fact, it helps you better listen in church.  So don't judge.  You are not God.  No, that is not the ONLY thing I am hinting at here, but that is all I am going to tell you.  Mainly because I want to type this out.  It helps me to get my feelings and stuff out on paper.  Yes, that is part of why I am an English teacher.  I did not enjoy writing until later in life.  Ya know, middle age.  :)  There are so many things I want to get off my chest and say or scream, but, alas, I will not.  Mainly because I just said alas.  Also because I am a stupid, stupid girl.  I should probably erase all of this babbling.  However, I am just a few seconds away from pushing Publish Post because it would defeat the purpose of typing all of this if I did not push the button.